phthalombrage | (no subject)

Today on the bus I was stuck reaching up for the bar, because people wouldn't let me stand close enough to one of the vertical bars I can actually reach. I stood on tiptoe for a bit, then relaxed into my feet and slightly extended my arm out of the shoulder socket (it makes a little pop, but I'm not sure what exactly skeletally/muscularly is going on). This was pretty painful, especially with the forces the jolting bus imparted, but it meant I wasn't on tiptoe, which means I am more likely to fall over.

Then it started hurting pretty badly, so I think I lost some circulation to my upper arm. When people finally rearranged enough that I could grab a vertical bar near the seats, my upper arm felt like it was constantly cramped, and the skin there turned red. I kept manipulating it with my other arm and clenching and unclenching my hand to try to help, but a girl wedged in behind me and made me stand with my arm behind me at an odd angle (and I couldn't turn around and use the other arm to hold on because then my backpack would be in a child's face), so it kept hurting until a few minutes after I got off at my stop.

What the fuck?